AWESOME!!!

Oh wait..... no..... it isn't. Gonna be going to work tonight on no sleep cuz I can't rest. Saturday is my big 2-0 day and I get to work on it unless i call out, which I most likely won't because I don't feel that I have been working there nearly long enough to do that. And I won't be able to make the Buffalo party on the 7th. Ya awesome news for someone who hates me, and to that person I say FUCK YOU. Also FUCK KARMA. Karma is bullshit, good intentions only kick me in the ass lately. I'm so tired but I can't sleep. This sucks like woah. Myles and Tanya aren't doing so hot either and I can't reach either of them. And frankly I am tired of hearing Mel this and Mel that. I don't care, stop writing about her. We aren't friends and that is the way it has to be. If this gets back around to her oh well, I am sorry for seeming like a complete asshole about this, but this is the way it has to be, for me. The past is the past and I don't want to look back at it anymore. I tire of it. It hurts to lose a friend and maybe we will pass eachother on a corner down the road, make a glance at eachother making sure the other did not see, and continue on our way, or we may be friends years down the road. But at the moment I really really don't want to hear about her, hear from her, see her, or think about her, and the afore said only makes the latter happen. I can't delete the past but I can stop the future from happening.